Sunday, July 10, 2005

lapses

Old friends are like coffee and conversation. They stimulate you into thinking and you spend long hours mulling over it.

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I am lost in my thoughts of the fates that bring me to where i am. I hardly understand anything happening in my life these days, i feel like it's a whirlwind of an existence, basically living each day as it comes, expecting nothing, anticipating everything. It's exhilarating, but at the same time, scary...

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Why am i so obssessed? To want something so bad yet not being able to get it tingles me to the very core. I wish i can stop this constant craving, yet i seem to be eerily drawn to it.Change is but a step away, and i am heistant to make the transition...

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coffee in my mug in the morning makes me open my eyes a little wider to see what's happening. I see it, yet i somehow still refuse to acknowledge it.

what the hell is wrong with me!?!?

ARGH.

2 comments:

LemonCloud said...

I think it is part of human nature to have desire for
something and yet afraid at the same time.
Hang in there, I hope you will be fine soon.

hlF said...

hey gurl! just take each day as it comes. better than taking a big bite. then chew it carefully.

you'll be fine. i know it. (^__^)

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